Sometimes I feel a little down. Depressed if you will.
The feeling comes on out of nowhere and hits at varying degrees of intensity.
Today, I felt like looking at the ocean. So i knew the feeling was a little worse than usual. Normally I can shake the feeling off without having to leave the house.
but, my emotionally-wrecked- self, tears and all, got into the car for a drive. Listening to "Dreamboat Annie"
i headed out.
The weather on the way to the ocean kind of matched what was inside of me. But surprisingly, I actually felt better before I got to the ocean.
Somehow, just being in the car alone in the drivers seat was enough. It's like the metaphor was good enough to cleanse the soul.
I was about to just turn around, thinking I've already cured what was unsettled. All the tears were already gone... but since I was only 5 mins away from the ocean, I decided to press on.
I'm happy I did. The ocean view of choice is always the same for me. I like going to kewalo basin/ kakaako.
I like the panoramic view of the ocean
The ocean and location help to remind me that, whatever I'm feeling at moment is nothing compared to the vastness of blue surrounding. No matter now sad I may momentarily feel, my emotions are like small crystals of sand.
And so I walked along the sidewalk, the endless ocean to my right, my healed self on the left.
While walking I also had a little reminder that happiness is in the small things
And after seeing that, my heart was officially settled.
Be kind. The theme for moment?
i walked all the way to the end of the sidewalk to my favorite view
And saw what I needed to see...
And I realized, everything right now really IS too beautiful to be feeling down, and to continue with the doom-and-gloom would be an affront to all that was around me.
I turned around and walked back toward my car feeling better that I was able to get out and feel the sun on my skin--and I guess, also that I could do this for myself.
i am in the drivers seat to my happiness, and If so willing can get there if I take the keys into my hands and go.
So I'm going back home